f/2.2, 1/200, ISO 160
Nikon D850; Sigma 35mm f/ 1.4 ART
I was five days Post-Op when I awoke to the reality that my body, which had housed four pregnancies and birthed three beautiful babies, was no longer capable of creating life. Of course, I knew this reality going into surgery, and weighed it heavily in my decision to proceed. But it didn't really hit my heart until afterwards. I was wombless. I took this self portrait that evening in hopes of helping me process my grief, and to document the raw reality of the pain I was feeling- both physically and emotionally.