Canon 6D , Sigma Art 35mm
THE YEAR 2020
Title: Facing the unknown
This image is of a husband waiting to go into surgery with his wife, who was about to have a cesarean. I too was also dressed in scrubs in the room with him waiting to go into the operating room. I noticed how scared and worried he was, how he was praying and crying and saw this moment. There was a bathroom door there and I had to open it to get further back to take the image.
ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE
f/2.2, 1/450, ISO 100
Nikon D750; sigma 35mm f/1.4 ART
Title: Love is Love in the Highlands
I had the amazing opportunity to travel to Glencoe, Scotland to lead a mentoring session for three other photographers. The couple in this photo so graciously met us on this cold rainy day and braved the photoshoot in these gorgeous lace dresses while I directed them to show the other photographers how I use emotive prompts in my sessions.
ƒ/2.4 1/60s ISO160
Samsung Galaxy S10
Title: Life Lessons With Mr. Rogers
I decided to shoot a day in the life using my cell phone a couple of weeks into quarantine. I was trying to make my home a safe, calm place for my children in the midst of some pretty scary personal and global news, so I introduced them to Mr. Rogers Neighborhood. The way he talks about difficult situations gave all of us a sense of calm an clarity.
f/4.5, 1/60s, ISO1000
Fuji X-T20; fujifilm xc16-50mm f/3.5-f5.6 ois ii
I approached the processing of this image with color in mind. I had just watched a series that was pretty inspiring in its cinematography, and thought I would push my normal editing with some complementary colors. Deepening the actual "gray" of the building to that blue-green really made the neon sign pop, and I also loved the way the yellow lights glow against the walls of the building. It took the image from a kind of grim bar in the rain to something a little more gritty.
Title: Coney Island
The day I took this photo was an emotional day. Many years ago I spent some months in New York City, and the diverse, quirky and colorful beach of Coney Island has been an intense memory since. When I visited it again, this time with my family and a photographer friend from New York, the memories came back all of a sudden.
f/7.1, 1/500s, ISO 200
Fujifilm X-T2; FUJIFILM XF 16mm f/1.4 R WR
f/2.2, 1/200, ISO 160
Nikon D850; Sigma 35mm f/ 1.4 ART
I was five days Post-Op when I awoke to the reality that my body, which had housed four pregnancies and birthed three beautiful babies, was no longer capable of creating life. Of course, I knew this reality going into surgery, and weighed it heavily in my decision to proceed. But it didn't really hit my heart until afterwards. I was wombless. I took this self portrait that evening in hopes of helping me process my grief, and to document the raw reality of the pain I was feeling- both physically and emotionally.
f/1.8, 1/250s, ISO500
CANON EOS 6D; Canon EF 35mm f/1.4L
Title: RAISING A CURIOUS DAUGHTER
This is a sweet little precocious baby girl who was so curious about the camera during their motherhood session.
NO PLACE LIKE HOME
f2.8, 1/200s, ISO 320
Nikon d850; Tamron SP 15-30mm f/2.8 Di VC USD
Title: Off to the Front Lines
This is an image of my husband in our mudroom, leaving for work through the garage door. My husband is a physician at one of the large university hospitals in the city, and so is considered an essential worker. During our state's shutdown, his leaving for work every day was a huge source of anxiety for me and the kids. With Covid cases increasing and so much unknown about the future, we worried about how his day would look, when we would see him again, and if he would contract the virus at work.
f/ 2.8, 1/80, ISO 400
CANON EOS 5D Mark iv; Canon EF 24-70mm
Title: Perfect on every side
When I created this double it became very emotional for me, because it evolved into a story about her. There is a quiet battle being waged in our home. It's a battle against self-doubt, anxiety, fear of loss, a sense of not being enough or ever giving enough. As hard as it is to believe, it's this girl we're fighting it for. She is amazing. She is a lover of the down-trodden, insightful, hard-working, creative, thoughtful, generous, and an A-student to name a few. She fills are home with music and dance. When I take a photo of her it is my hope that she will someday see that all of her is beautiful and worthy. I want her to face the camera and life with every side . There is no bad side.
f/4, 1/200s, ISO 2500
CANON EOS 5D Mark iv; Canon EF 28mm f/2.8
Title: Welcome To Spa Quarantine
This is an image out of a series of self-portraits made in hopes to better cope with the effects of isolation and the uncertainty during the time of the Covid-19 pandemic. It is with humor that I find it is so much easier to make it through rough times, even if that means pretending your bathroom is a spa or a cocktail lounge.
STORY IN STILL LIFE
ƒ/16, 1/250s, ISO 1250
Fuji X-T3; fujifilm XF18-55mmF2.8-4 R LM OIS
Title: Kaffee and a Tart
After 2 weeks vacationing in Italy and indulging in gelato and pizza, it was a shock to pay 3 times the price for an espresso once we arrived in Switzerland.
This image reminds me of our first coffee stop and how we picked, more wisely, what and where we ate for the remainder of the trip.
f/2.5, 1/400s, ISO 3200
CANON EOS 5D Mark iv; sigma 35mm f/ 1.4 ART
Title: At Home
This photograph shows how much my daughter has grown while also showcasing a part of our farmhouse. We have lived her just over a year but have had this farm & house in our hearts for over a decade.
I have had a lot of "pinch me" moments in the past year, that we get to be the stewards of this land and 218 year old farmhouse. So this image is more to me than just my daughter in a pretty yellow dress in our bathroom. It's a realized dream in motherhood and the meaning of home.
ISO 1250 f 3.2 1/200
Canon R5, Sigma ART 24mm
Title: A Covid Christmas
Often when I am feeling BIG feelings, the first thing I know I need to do to help me process them is take a self portrait. Often Its challenging and I really dont want to, but afterwards I am always glad I did and even now almost a year later I look back on this image and I am right there sitting in that frustration and disappointment again.
It is a great reminder that even though I was feeling all those feelings in that moment the holiday turned out to be one of our very best, despite the challenges of covid.
Sony A7riii, 24-70 2.8 lens at 24mm
Title: THIS TOO SHALL PASS
This image was made on September 9, 2020 in Belmont, California in the town where I live. It was deep into both the pandemic and the largest wildfire season recorded in modern California history. Smoke had been blanketing our region reducing air quality for days, but on September 9, the smoke layer became so dense that it blocked out the sun and it looked like night during midday. In fact, this photo was taken at 3:23pm. An orange glow made the area look like a scene from an apocalyptic movie. Many houses in our town put out messages of hope during the pandemic, but this one was particularly poignant on that eerie fall day.
ISO 250 f/4 1/800
Canon Mark IV, Canon EF 24L
On May 30th, 2020 I was visiting my friend who lived near the State Capital in Sacramento, CA. It was early on in the pandemic where everyone was already on edge, and then George Floyd happened. We heard that there would be a protest just blocks away so we grabbed our cameras, our masks, and walked to the Capital. This was one of the first major protests in the country outside of Minneapolis. There was thick tension in the air and I admit that I was shaking because it all felt ominous. There were masked and shielded police officers covering the perimeter. Someone threw a water bottle at them and I was afraid something awful would happen. We didn't stay very long, maybe an hour, but this image was taken during a beautiful moment. A white man wore a drum over his shoulders and a sign saying, "Stop Killing Black People". As he played, a group formed a circle around him and began to dance. These were two of the people standing on the edge of the circle, watching.
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